Where do you want to go? What do you want to be? We were told we could be anything we wanted to be as long as we set our mind to it.
Some of us were told we were called. Chosen, even.
But what happens when the future you thought was sitting there, waiting for you, ripe for the picking, just…isn’t?
When I was a little kid, 8 or 9 maybe, my father, who was pastoring a church plant in Miami at the time, boldly (brashly?) assigned a spiritual calling to my life. He derived it from the five leadership gifts listed in Ephesians 4 – apostle, prophet, evangelist, pastor, and teacher. He determined, unilaterally, that I was and would forever be an apostle-evangelist.
He even got me some dog tags at the mall that had “Zach Hoag, Apostle-Evangelist” engraved on them.
(Pretty awesome, in a ridiculous 80’s Christian culture kind of way.)
And for the longest time, I assumed that I would walk a smooth pathway into powerful, successful ministry as a result of this calling. But that’s not what happened. What happened instead was repeated drama and disaster in the pursuit of that ministry call, both as a kid and as an adult.
But when I was at my lowest point, after my own church plant had come crashing to an end, I began to write. I began to write with passion and consistency and intensity.
And in a moment of desperation, when I asked God what I should do next, I’m convinced he said, “Just keep writing.”
See, words have power.
They have the power to create worlds.
And when we begin to write with passion, consistency, and intensity, we pave new pathways to the future.
What I’m saying is, no matter how things have turned out in your life: just keep writing.
Write the future.
Because you just might find, like I have, that the calling you have always felt heavy on your life was not meant to unfold in the way you expected. It was meant to be refined and reshaped through adversity and disappointment and perseverance.
I am just as called now as I ever was – even more so. “Apostle-evangelist?” Not sure I’d label myself that way, but my true and deeper calling has emerged precisely because I have moved through and beyond the unhealthy and disastrous designs of the past.
I am writing my way forward, everyday.